Wednesday 8th December 2010 - Reminders of a painful past

Meet David Meece. I never heard of him until yesterday and yet he has been a Christian recording artist for over 30 years. He was born 26th May 1952. He is 18 months older than me. He speaks of a need to forgive a parent. An abusive one. This is hard. This song, My Father's Chair is one of the most powerful songs I have ever heard. Some where along the line, with Christ's help he was able to forgive. Two words that should never be uttered to anyone anywhere any time: Your Worthless. That is what his father said to him. He struggled with those feelings of worthlessness for years. And then there was the need to forgive the person who voiced those words.
This from the heart. Mine. We need to forgive those who hurt us in the deep way in which David was hurt. That is not easy to do.
I remember my mother well. Too well. The mental scaring is still there 30 years after she past away. Dad wasn't aware of all that happened. The physical scares heal over time. The mental scares never do. They are always just below the surface. Ready to come flooding back.
I thought about all that yesterday as I listened to David's testimony. And I got angry. And sad. Angry because my mother had inflicted all that hatred on her children. Sad, because we never got to know the beautiful woman she could be. David also was denied the knowledge of the good man inside his father.
Have I forgiven my mother? I hesitate as I answer that question. I am not sure.
Till next time.......