I stuffed up. Badly. It's my mouth. Well, my mind actually. It's just that my mouth gave expression to my mind and the person my mind was thinking about heard the expression about himself. It's not the first time I have had Foot In Mouth disease. It's a very long standing malady I have. Part of the self life. A part that refuses to die and go away and annoy someone else. The person of who I made the comment confronted me with my comment and I had to hold up the white flag. Not a good feeling but one that was necessary. I have resolved to keep my big mouth closed.
But that brings me to another thought and a part of my own past that I would rather hadn't happened but did happen.
In the course of our conversation, my friend made a comment about being taken out of service. I can relate to that. In 1984 I was living in Manjimup, West Australia. I was attending the Manjimup Churches of Christ and was an elder in that church also serving as secretary/treasurer. I also had an ego as big as Ayers Rock. I needed to be humbled and God did. It's a very long story and I will spare the details. In February 1985 I moved to Geraldton in my employment. And, partly as a result of my experiences in the Manjimup Church, resolved never to serve as elder in a church again and also never to preach again. I basically told Christ that I didn't care what He thought, I was closing that area of my life to Him. He took me at my word and took me out of service.
I spent the next 10 years in the wilderness, deluding myself that all was right with my Christian walk. In reality it was a sham. I went through the motions but that was about all. The really tragic part was that I had fooled myself into thinking one thing when the reality was entirely different. I praise the Lord that He brought me to my senses. It is an awful thing to be deluded as to the reality of our Christian walk.
Till next time.....
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